shit.its more than just infatuation with the ex.i dunno.was really bummed that he didnt go to sch on mon=couldnt see him.anyohow,it turned alright fine with dinner.i feel the green eyed monster coming up everytime i hear bout girls from his sch or his team.whyyy.i dont even know. i really wished at this point in time nothing happened.and i didnt know him.initially he was the cute boy that knows me from tpjc.then it became the cute boy that asks me out for dinner.then the cute boy who asked me.then the fucking idiot that pissed me off and the break.really regretting it man.i dont even know how he feels or think.sometimes i feel really pissed off knowing he's flirting around after the breakup,then again i feel as tho everything can be changed if he only comes back.WTH.its irritating to know that fact.and that everyone else knew it before me.what a jackass you might say.but he's like i dunno,the cutest thing ever? haha.i contridict myself i know.at least i take comfort that we still talk.occasionally.rather than not talking at all.

i know i still have feelings for him.then again,i feel that im rebounding onto,let call him K.yeah.K's nice and all.haha.how can i be rebounding if i know i am.gosh.my heart's in a mess.=(

i hate guys,but i really really like him. (note: i didnt say love.)